Rasasvaada

"Timeless" In a continuum of experience, I saw what I perpetually hoped for, an unbounded love reaching the blossoming blessings of Eden. There I stood reflecting on the time we spent together... Your sparkling eyes shot me down from the sky, bam! next thing I realized I was deep down on earth, wondering if I could ever walk along your side... Mystery you were then, mystery you are & mystery you will ever be. I felt like a child around you speculating, if God has sent you to me & only for me. A whole new level of dimension was added to my world, the vividness of colors filled my space, & I sat there high on the very thought of you. A time, the time came then & you were mine. there was nothing I needed more than you, always & forever. In a moment I lived my life & there were many of them, now am obligated to treasure them all. there, an epic biography down to safe haven to be taken care off. Delighted & awestruck in the

"Unvoiced" We never said it to each other, we just both knew. My heart felt like a prisoner in my chest, it never was mine. Our demons were intended to play together until the end of time. I told you, I will love you for the rest of my life. You responded, "love me till the rest of mine". A single thought of you enkindles my eyes & heart for the one pious love which burns the soul for eternal. Your love is unfathomable like a bottomless well. A commitment like a sun, who dies every night to let the moon breathe is what I aspire to have for you! Am chaos to you & you are an obscure imagination for which I will suffocate in the smoke of our burnt love passionate & platonic! An exquisite notion of fear, accompanying strange memories cripples my feeble mind although your vibrant soul, lends a dwindling flickering hope to mine. I simply could not keep my eyes off you, the trancing symphony in the locks of your hair, numbed my distressed

"Delilah" The encounters of our eyes is where it all started. Mindfucking turmoil it stirred up inside me, possessed & obsessed with you I was. You had me with your first smile, the intellect we shared in that serene moment in the absence of spoken words, inexplicable. Struggling to not lose myself more into the abyss of your enticing charm. My heart is bruised-off the merciless passion you own in that trivial yet pitiless heart. Yet it still yearns for more of you & your perpetual eccentric cosmos. This irrational, conflicting feel I have been in, akin to an adrenaline rush added to morphine insurgence. The mischief & deviltry of your kindling eyes has an everlasting spell bounding effect on me, am exhausted from running away, all my self-control is diminishing now. This vicious void am falling into never hits bottom, the realization daunts me of the colossal failure, even though I run, I run hard for the pursuance of the glorious fall

"Desire" The magic of your eyes gives me the ink to set my blank plain pages on raging fire. Incapable of defining you, in the pain I curse myself, your unbounding limitlessness in all prospects. Every act of yours’ has woven words of love on my wrinkled & aching soul. You have exquisite ways to my heart, like a minx to men. I wonder the first time we will be together, will be the last time I will own my heart. The conversations between my fingers, your hair & skin will be unforgiving to our tormented selves. Symphony to my ears, indelible impression to my eyes, being with you will be a splendid adventure. Indeed! Love is the most elegant & elaborate method of living & dying all at once. #mukulsinghbisht

"Yours" Taking off this make-up, smears & smudges of lipstick and mascara, I gather you said to me once you look beautiful without it ! Since then, I made my mind am going to be yours & only yours truly, pristine & in a godly way, I am... And to no one else I will ever unveil this real me, that's how I want to show you how my soul is intertwined with yours. The day I find you again, I will be the best thing you had ever seen, in the dress you like. Chords will be played, would wish for nature to make you fall in for us in our togetherness for eternity. I will entice you in the way no woman has ever done it, am going to make you love me just for one night but my memory will walk in your mind, haunting you & you will keep recalling it for your entire lifetime. that's how I want to be yours ... #mukulsinghbisht

"venomous"  Nothing gets me intoxicated the way you do, every single time when I look at your beautiful eyes trying to plunge into your pristine soul. Everything about you is so serene & pure that I tend to lose all my inhibitions and come out naked & bare as a child. You on the other way keeps hold of everything together with the way you do your hair clutched in the form of the small universe. At times I wonder if I ever cross your mind because if I do, that would be it. So intricate detailing you possess that it knocks me the fuck off my feet, even the way you brush your teeth gets me so so high. Like a drug captivates one's mind you have the same effect on me, you get me into this divine trance mode making me feel invincible and invulnerable. I wish if you ever loved me, the things I would say & do to you would make you feel the unfelt & want it more like a never-ending thirst... #mukulsinghbisht

"The Tease"  Biting your lower lip until it hurts, begging, swearing, cursing and trembling because you want it so bad. Isn't sex more of a psychological game than a physical one? The unattainability that leaves us hopelessly daydreaming about twisted sheets and hot bodies entanglement, when we're supposed to be sitting at our desks working between the hours of nine and five? No mental stimulation, there is no sexual stimulation. A pressing conversation, a heated grilling debate, a passionate rant, witty banter, a deeply personal reveal — that’s what plants the sexual seeds. Stimulating the mind stimulates our sexuality with a fiercer, longer-lasting intensity than gazing into cleavage or steel-cut abs. It’s akin to slowly unwrapping a present. Taking your time to untangle the satin ribbons and delicately unwrap the glowing skin — makes your hands go slow on the forbidden fruit. #mukulsinghbisht

"maybe" Maybe am too scared to disappoint you! Maybe am too frightened to even face you! Maybe am too terrified to stand you! Maybe am too dreaded to look into your eyes straight! Maybe am too weak to even get my knees together seeing you! Maybe am too mortified to hold you in my arms! Maybe am too afraid to lose you! Maybe am too haunted by the fact that what if I screw things up! Maybe am too daunted by the fact that what if you will leave me! Maybe all this results in my cowardliness! The way you play with my mind & soul, the way you keep them together, the way you move into me & the way I keep losing myself in that moment, that lusciousness, numbing, soothing, sedating, luring, enticing, tempting, tranquilizing the effect you leave on me results in an overwhelming feeling of fear and anxiety... But I sincerely hope that this is not the end! Maybe... #mukulsinghbisht

"Evolution" The day I met me at the crossroads was the day I came to know myself. what my boundaries were, boundaries which define me, telling me what am capable of, telling me how far can I really push myself. But the fact lies in the way how you are approaching your limitations, pushing yourself is strenuous and exhausting. But that is the only thing which lets you redefine yourself in an improvised machine, lesser movable parts with higher efficiency. Boundaries act as a one-way valve once you push, it does not retract its own path. The better I get, the lesser I feel, feelings are like the friction, that dynamic friction which is always there, slowing the working of the mechanism but also helps on many occasions. We can not get rid of emotions, emotion is the root cause of all fear and fear is the commander of one's boundaries. To change and evolve decides our very own existence its the fact we humans survive the wrath of each other and the

 "Denial" No love, yes love! That's the dwindling struggle the heart & mind goes through when I see you ... But one never fights hard enough to go through the end & reach the sanity. Then comes the phase when something breaks you from within, everything you ever worked for lands you in the darkest alley of your atrocious memories, twisting the stomach so hard like my soul bleeds love... There I stand like fools still trying to comprehend it whether am in it or not, or did it sting me or I got spared? forevermore, imbecile I remain! #mukulsinghbisht

"Damnation" Your gasping & struggle for breath, reminds me of the witch of dark woods, yearning for youth in her dying years. The strenuous but futile efforts for her desires  are the evidential trueness of God's justness. Justness which runs this holy forsaken damned place predestined to meet its end. ...yes the God plays dice & not just once! #mukulsinghbisht

"Agony of Love" Mysterious is the way love works, the ways it torments, the way it haunts & the way it avenges. Cryptic & mystic in its approach, loves plunges into its prey mercilessly renders it helpless & pitiful. The only art in this vague universe, vast enough to be undeciphered & uncomprehended by the humane reach. Dark yet beautiful, an eternal expedition to nothingness. Love having a piercing & numbing effect, sparing none in this God-forsaken place. The excruciating pain we suffer, devising  intolerable ordeals, series of unfortunate events we go through. We lose ourselves trying to conquer it but even the glorious fails, victorious fall to their knees, begging for the mercy of it. Yet we all want to fall and rise in it, yet we all try to seek it our entire life, yet we all yearn for it, yet we all long for it to last forever. But the "KIND LOVE" the "KIND LOVE" indeed has no compassion, it

"A Moment of Poignance" Lying in the darkroom, bewitched by your treacherous hair. Your smiling eyes twisting my mind tracing the crests of your devilish lips with the tips of my rough fingers, am trying hard not to sink further am drowning, am drowning in your unfathomable unkind love, unresting & chaotic love, the kind of intimidating love. Can't let you go, am turning pale & blue. Can only feel you around over and under me. Your numbing and piercing effect renders me hollow. Grimness engulfing my soul & the unending joy of nothingness at the same time. You are a paradox, poison & cure at the same time. Let us take a plunge into each other's desires, let's discover something not known to humanity, let us get dissolved into the eternity, let us just flow with it. Your heart shattering & unforgiving love. The heart has no pity on my mind, it keeps remembering you. This is what I want, the love of loves... #mukulsinghb