Rasasvaada

"the tryst" "I will love you like the moon loves the sea, distantly & incessantly" You were the proof that prayers do get answered. My search ended the moment I laid my eyes on you, You had an enticingly blinding effect on me. Such a beautiful mess you were, nobody knew how to care for you. You felt like embers in my cold winter and with your touch love seeped into my barren heart. You became my first thought of morning, the last desire of night and everything else in between. Every time I looked at you, I found love in a new way. Your indulging mischiefs festered the rumor of our infamous love affair. Little did I know that I had to remember you, longer than I had known you. You were my thoughts at the dead of night & the dream I was not supposed to keep. Being the most desirable soul in my life with a soothing essence, you had me spellbound. In the ways that go without saying how much I wanted you to be mine,...

"Abandoned Love" I have always loved you with the dust of my existence, Never a minute later or a second too soon. I have made art out of you in my head, Stealing glimpses when you were not looking. Your presence reflects in my hunger and still lingers in my poetry... As you were the only star in my entire universe, Giving solace to my tender aching soul. The warmth of your existence gave me the formidable drive to love you unconditionally. With those uncontrollable & uncontainable eyes of yours, you nudged me into this realm of romanticism. Remember? I used to say, "I will invade your heart one day, that day resistance will be pointless and you will have to surrender yourself to me with all your love." Deep down I knew the tides of your love are Never going to be calm but devastating. I was never meant to be complete as you were the other half, I was not supposed to have. This stroll down the amnesia lane drives me to forget & de...

"Reminiscence" When I first saw you, I felt like a barren land, deserted of water for ages. Forever I was to be yours, till the sun loves the moon, till the moon divorces the tides, until the end of time. Just to prove I was worth your love. I still see your name floating in the gust of winds. But, I no longer wish to catch it anymore.    Your love gave me music, an instrument but before I could even learn to play it, you left. The numbness of this void was so excruciating that it poured out the love out of my soul. Pardon me, as I did not get to tell you that it was neither your fault nor mine. For no lover has ever left the 'Garden of Love' without bleeding his heart out. The callous and indifferent demeanor of yours, fueled my passion even further but the fire which wreathed in me burned the goodness and all I could breath was the ashes of our unburnt love in my lungs turning me into this black mass of nothingness... For it was only on...

"Cinnamon Affair" You would have never left me, if only you knew what your touch did to me. Passion never seemed this intense before the time I met you. Even the heaven was less enticing & alluring for me than the untouched parts of you. Smacking your lips to taunt me you provoked the immovable and yet so volatile & insatiable hunger in me. Nuzzling through my hair, you kissed the side of my neck. Feeling your soft breaths on my nape, I found poetry in the rise and fall of your exquisite mounds of your chest while you moaned my name. Your perfumed hair evolving from the mist of your divine existence, rendered me breathless & enchanted with the hymn of your sinful self. Those sumptuous revealing stares of yours incited my eyes to tear your lingerie off with more intensity than my hands ever could. Wrapped in those white sheets, from those Friday evenings to the Sunday mornings, you made me dress and undress all at once. Taking you by ...

"Scarlet" We were doomed since the very first day our eyes met... En-crumbling chills ran down my spine when she raced out of my mortal heart. The wet and shabby floor of this devastated ruins of my so-called "love", spilled out every dirty intricate detail. I remember everything between us which didn't even happen. I remember you as awfully pretty even when you were not mine. I remember the exalted taste of your careless elegance. I remember your fervent dedication to keep people happy. I remember you as the blended fragrance of our unrequited love. This realization dropped like a bomb on me, that we were never meant to be together. Like those two annihilating parts of the universe, which always brings in the chaos & despair. Cultivating this pain, nurturing it, watering it. I reaped the harvest, watered by my tears of pain. I write to get you out of my whole existence. I write to forget the aroma of your body when it used to move aga...

"The Muse" You, my love, are a beautiful string of emotional train wrecks! Pursuing the gorgeous yet haunting expanses of your unexplored territories. I harbored this unbearable pain in my rib cage. Undressing you of all your insecurities & miseries, I made you bloom like a sunflower. Your eyes spoke to mine out loud, we were fluent in the language of love. The unbelievable grace of your tenderness stirred the most romantic endeavor inside me. Sedating the storm of your madness while I gasped so loud, like all the air have been drawn out of my lungs. I claimed to this mortal world, that you were solely mine. My eyes revealed all with just one smile of yours, it froze everything around me but made me feel its warmth. Immersing into the magenta color of your sore love, I sold the pieces of my soul just to have you in return. Your words linger around me. You calling my name, made me feel like I am so much more than just a name. Looking at you sleep...

"Passion Fruit" You were like a poetry, my hands wanted to read. To embrace the warmth of your veins pounding blood, I moved the heaven & the earth to be with you. Those bare impure & imperfect thoughts mind scarring me because no one does it like the way you do. With these intensifying & unforgiving desire of ours. Your breath on my collarbone was like a distant force pulling my body in & soul out. My hands in your hair, my breath on your neck... That's how bliss felt like! Undressing your mind with the intimacy of a naked emotion. I burnt my tongue lacing your earlobes. Your moans fueled our passion even further & the luminosity was just incandescent for the mortal beings. With that lingering tease, your aroused eyes spoke to mine. Looking at me with that thirst, your scarlet lips seemed ever more voluptuous. Those rhythmic movements of ours made music also blush for a fraction. As you moaned, scratching my back with that gush...

"Essence" She asked, "Why do you always smile?" to which I said, "How can anyone look at you and not smile." I returned home every evening to feel her warmth in the cold nights, like all thousands of birds did. As she was like the gravitational pull eclipsing moon, making me come back for more every time. Breathing her insecurities, I woke up most nights. Keeping her pious love hostage in my ribs, so I did not have to live without it, ever. Crawling under her skin to know every inch, I tasted the sap of her sorcerous beauty which invoked a new life in me, a new fire. I discovered poetry in the darkness of her hair, while she danced in her own element in the monsoon. Blessed was her heart with divinity & with the nerve wrecking desire of mine, I took hold of her & said, "I would take zillion times more to wait for you." Scribbling my name on her naked back, a string of questions dawned on me: Whether in that i...

"Prelude" Timeless as moon she was to me. Possessing the equanimity of the pristine Himalayan river, Her smile seemed like something out of our realm. Such was her innate beauty. That dazzling aura of her's blinded me in the very moment, Drenching me with overwhelming emotions. With my trembling hands & whimpering voice, I said, "You were born of a rainbow & I wish you could see yourself the way I see you." Pouring myself into you with this magnificent disarray, My heart bled love. Her unstoppable ridiculously majestic self, Took the complete hold of me. Awe I was in while watching her take the bun stick of her hair, Causing shadows of grey clouds over my meadow. Tucking those few strands behind her ear she smiled at me... And every time she looked at me like that, I felt as new all over again. These silent midnight whispers unraveled our untold sacred secret. I became you & you became me, that's how it was meant to be......

"Cold" The cold nights of winters bring me the gift of endless pain of the memoirs we shared. Every year I survive these winters... I waited at the threshold longing...yearning for your return but you never made your way back to "our" home. In my soul, I knew I contributed to the death of your love but I never knew how I suffocated you. I just cared too much. All I ever wanted was someone who could fill my heart & I always hoped I let her in, but these winds bring me back to the shackles of your treacherous self again & again. I told myself, "If this is heaven, I will still prefer your hell rather more." Though I believed, I will heal eventually... But for me, love has always been an omen. As my heart always bloomed into gold in your presence, turning my imperfections into some divine being, while you wore my poetry as your most profound possession. You became one yourself, the sheer beauty in motion, my poem. With this ma...

"The Commune" They say, "Loving takes its course." but my heart, my heart was a rebel. It whispered, "To get the taste of your unexplored soul, I will come from 7 kingdoms through heaven & hell." This desperation is a beautiful thing which bleeds your heart out & from the distant mist of time I have seen right through you. My handmade love is your only antidote & your soul feeds on it. The push & pull of us exemplified the magnetism of our bond unique, difficult but unbroken. My wants to devour you with my infinite wisdom compelled me to do sins on your naked self & the motion of your body defined our sultry, beautiful & sleepless nights we shared together. Your roguish grin resembled the devilish presence of Gods in beauty. Your inhibited wilderness was not meant for the feign of heart. For your endeavors needed a mortal like me to fuel your prowess. Haunted by the idea of your presence in, out & a...

"Nectar" Am writing to you from the other side of the woods, in the hope of your homecoming... Maybe you have never realized but I have had gazillions of heart attacks when in the moment you caught me looking at you. "that iconic feminism", Gawd! You totally had me when you were busy tucking those strands of hair behind your ear. The music of your touch & the reflection of my universe in your eyes, shot me down from my own sky & I fell irrevocably in love with the tantalizing scent of your body that still lingers around me like a spell. My powerlessness turned me submissive as I could not help falling in love with you. Just when the time was right, something broke in her, something which could not be mended & of the overwhelming pain she gave up on me.  Deluded in the realm of your cosmos, I still drink the elixir of your love... #mukulsinghbisht

"Promises" I wanted to write something but I have been trying for too long now, here... Where were you when I was 17, huh? - she said, unraveled under the urgency of her gaze, my eyes lit up with joy in her response. With her smoky eyes, dark straight hair & an incessant voice, my body got synced with her’s like a frozen music. Promising me of her never-ending love, she departed vanishing into her Eden. For the magic of her touch leaving a trail on my skin I writhed with desire & yearned for her evermore. "those acts of love" Beautiful savage with beautiful lies! #mukulsinghbisht

"Resurrection" She walked softly towards me like a whisper giving solace to my insecurities. Untamable was her favorite self with an unyielding & invincible soul. Somewhere between our long conversations, somewhere between our trivial fights, somewhere between our sassy comebacks, I fell in love with her. Since then , I smelled her in every flower, I heard her in every music, I saw her in every picture, I felt her in every touch. She was like a total contradiction of rare form, spreading like a wildfire in my dying heart reviving it all. Unraveling her disguising symphony, I was born again! #mukulsinghbisht

"Enkindling" I bask in her when... That dent on her right cheek unceasingly adorns her smile. She tucks her hair behind her ears, casts a spell on me. She can’t decide whether to tie them or leave them open looking in the mirror. Her laugh, beautiful & infectious, spread like a wildfire in my weak heart. Refueling is... The way she closes her eyes when she takes the first sip of her coffee. That moment when her eyes twitches on lying. When she fiddles on being nervous, cutest ever. She with her playlist sitting alone in a corner, totally in her element stimulates her fire. For the first time in a long time, everything is exalting. She is my solace! #mukulsinghbisht

"Step Closer" When your devious eyes stare into my soul & when the curves of your lips make me wanna die in that valley of tranquility, come one step closer! When my breath is taken away every moment you cross my mind & when your subtle movements define the depth of my love for you in the most articulated manner, come one step closer! When in the middle of a kiss I feel you smiling & when am dissolving into you when you touch me, come one step closer! I wonder how can something be so beautiful that it aches so much & as the midnight comes I wish to all the stars to aid me in my pursuance of you. Let us take one step each to fill this void between us... Oftentimes I dream of waking up next to you, Damn! everything is so inspiring. #mukulsinghbisht

"Ranika" In a december morning, just when the fog cleared my eyes got stuck on the blood red lips of yours. Dumbstruck I stood waiting for your eyes to notice mine & when they did, I got rattled up. Heartbeats were banging my chest to come out, thirst & sweat made it clear to you revealing my state of mind. Looking towards you I was hoping if you would choose to look at me once. All my confidence drained out of me when you were around. How on earth was it possible for me to not be with you? This came as a dark cloud of despair to me & miserable I was. Then you came along seeking a favor, God has his ways, exalted by your gracious charm... I spent a lifetime in that moment of serenity. Next thing was your hands were on mine, my heart stopped, all my miseries were over. I said to you, "If you are there with me there is nothing in this dimension I can't conquer" you replied with your subliming smile in your consen...

"Malefic" No love is pure. No love is kind. It just catches up & destroys you.  It gets you when you are most vulnerable & weak. It hunts you down & makes you pay for it, That's how cruel love is which nobody tells you about. The ugly side of love! #mukulsinghbisht

"Timeless" In a continuum of experience, I saw what I perpetually hoped for, an unbounded love reaching the blossoming blessings of Eden. There I stood reflecting on the time we spent together... Your sparkling eyes shot me down from the sky, bam! next thing I realized I was deep down on earth, wondering if I could ever walk along your side... Mystery you were then, mystery you are & mystery you will ever be. I felt like a child around you speculating, if God has sent you to me & only for me. A whole new level of dimension was added to my world, the vividness of colors filled my space, & I sat there high on the very thought of you. A time, the time came then & you were mine. there was nothing I needed more than you, always & forever. In a moment I lived my life & there were many of them, now am obligated to treasure them all. there, an epic biography down to safe haven to be taken care off. Delighted & awestruck in the...

"Unvoiced" We never said it to each other, we just both knew. My heart felt like a prisoner in my chest, it never was mine. Our demons were intended to play together until the end of time. I told you, I will love you for the rest of my life. You responded, "love me till the rest of mine". A single thought of you enkindles my eyes & heart for the one pious love which burns the soul for eternal. Your love is unfathomable like a bottomless well. A commitment like a sun, who dies every night to let the moon breathe is what I aspire to have for you! Am chaos to you & you are an obscure imagination for which I will suffocate in the smoke of our burnt love passionate & platonic! An exquisite notion of fear, accompanying strange memories cripples my feeble mind although your vibrant soul, lends a dwindling flickering hope to mine. I simply could not keep my eyes off you, the trancing symphony in the locks of your hair, numbed my distressed...